changeling ep

by ambiguously me

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released April 11, 2017

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Track Name: wild boy
i feel like a honeybee
i’ll be the land you be the sea
will you wear my sweaters if
it gets cold in hawai’i
i wonder if your cat will know
you have gone where i can’t go
i promise i will wear your boots
when it snows in chicago

i’m already choking on
distances that haven’t dawned
i miss you when you’re next to me
i will miss you when you’re gone
i am losing sleep at night
i’m sorry that i lost your sprite
you’re a glowing goddess and
i’m a sinning acolyte

you’ll be with the golden tides
and i will miss your stormy eyes
you will find your home again
i’ll remember all the times
smoking underneath the stars
figuring out just who we are
hold me close and tell me that
you will never be too far

i feel like a honeybee
i’ll be the land you be the sea
will you wear my crocheted hat
if it gets cold in hawai’i
i wonder if you will know
don’t care how far i love you so
i promise i will think of you
when it snows in chicago
Track Name: smoking kills
LOVE IS GROSS
AND I AM TOO
YOU’LL NEVER CATCH ME DEAD
HAVING FEELINGS FOR YOU
OR ANYONE AT ALL
CAUSE MY THERAPIST SAID
I CAN’T GET RID OF
THE SHIT THAT’S IN MY HEAD

IM SICK TO DEATH OF PROMISES
THAT I KNOW I CAN’T KEEP
I WILL SAY THAT IT’S AN ACT
THAT I WILL NOT REPEAT
BUT I DO NOT LOVE MYSELF
AND I DO NOT LOVE MY LIFE
IF SMOKING DOESN’T KILL ME
I GUESS I’LL USE A KNIFE

ART IS DIFFICULT
AS ALWAYS I EXPRESS
THE FEELINGS THAT I FEEL
COME ACROSS AS NICELY DRESSED
THOUGH I MUST ADMIT
THAT IT IS ALL A LIE
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO
WHEN MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO DIE
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO
WHEN MY BRAIN TELLS ME TO DIE

HOPEFULLY ONE DAY
THIS WILL ALL COME TO AN END
LOGICALLY IT WILL
BUT IT’S NICE JUST TO PRETEND
THESE ARE JUST THE ASHES
THAT ARE GONNA HELP ME BLOOM
AND MAYBE IN ANOTHER TIME
I’LL LOOK UP AT THE MOON
MAYBE IN ANOTHER TIME
I’LL LOOK UP AT THE MOON
MAYBE I CAN STILL PRETEND
GOOD THINGS ARE COMING SOON

maybe in another time
i’ll look up at the sun
and she will say to me
darling you are filled with love
there is so much more to you
than blood and flesh and bone
you are larger than you think
than you will ever know
there is so much more to me
than blood and flesh and bone
i am just a seed
there is time for me to grow
Track Name: faeking it
i found
a goddess
she told me
to fight

and i met
an angel
a valkyrie
that night

you’re yellow rushing on the wind
you’re starlight in the ocean
they told me that i’m gonna be alright

a remnant of a summer snow
a memory from long ago
they told me soon you’re going to ignite

lavender dreams
a song from upstream
won’t you take me
back to the sea
berries and cream
it seems so extreme
won’t you take me
back to the sea

i found
a lover
they sang me
a hymn

and i kissed
the divine
i sink and
i swim

you’re standing at the water
i’m alone at your altar
i said you’re gonna find them someday soon

i’ll smoke you up and let you down
one day i swear i’ll leave this town
i’ll leave you with nothing but the moon

lavender dreams
a song from upstream
won’t you take me
back to the sea
berries and cream
it seems so extreme
won’t you take me
back to the sea
Track Name: rich kid blood
drenched in rich kid blood, rotten money and mud
we are just dirty bodies being dragged out by the flood
there’s a corpse in my bed and my girlfriend said
i do too many drugs and it’s getting to my head

bruises on my collarbone
feeling more and more alone
throw me back into the dirt
tell me that i have no worth
take a bite and use your teeth
choke me til i do not breathe
want to hurt physical
want to be visible

would you kill yourself in a dirty motel
if you drank your way to god would she send you back to hell
cause i know i would and i know i could
if i wasn’t such a coward i would say i should

pity sex and starting fights
i feel like a parasite
no one knows till it’s too late
sorry that you feel this way
thought i was a pretty peach
turns out we’ve been drinking bleach
take a shot and down we go
there is nothing more to know

always thought it strange that you played along
stick and pokes and needles and writing shitty songs
always found it funny that you turn the other cheek
lets go back down and smoke by the creek
like we used to

loving you is sharp and soft and hard to swallow
pills you take for your migraines it’s painful i know
tell me that i’m beautiful even if you lie
let’s lay back down and stare at the sky
like we used to

we’re drenched in rich kid blood, rotten money and mud
we are just dirty bodies being dragged out by the flood
there’s a corpse in my bed and my girlfriend said
i do too many drugs and it’s getting to my head
Track Name: ps i love you
i will sleep with my lights on
(i will cry when you are gone)
i am scared, will always be
(seems like fear is the open sea)

i need to believe
that this will last forever
i need to believe
that we will both remember

the sound of your laugh
and my voice on the phone
your tv is on
we’re not quite grown
i’m dancing in rain you
dragged out of the sky
back of my car
we’re all getting high
look at your face at the light shining through
look at the stars how they sing for you
also i love you
thought i should mention that

i will drink cold lemonade
(pretend that i have not decayed)
I will stay up every night
(just to watch the same sun rise)

i want to believe
that this could last forever
i want to believe
that we can both remember

the sound of your laugh
and my voice on the phone
your tv is on
we’re not quite grown
i’m dancing in rain you
dragged out of sky
back of my car
i’m not even high
but i look at your face and see divinity inside
i look at the face of the ocean tides

you and all you are
and me and what i am
it just doesn’t seem that fair
that i’ll end up heartbroken again

yeah i think i love you
but i guess it doesn’t matter